
This photo makes me a little sad. It brings back memories of my mom who passed away last year. Also,there are so many members who have passed away, it really hits home how life continues without this so called New System arriving ''any time soon.''
I became inactive ten years ago and stopped attending meetings altogether the last four years . I had to be true to myself and stop pretending I was still a Jehovah's Witness. The mental anguish was too much for me to continue this farce.
I was taken off the Ministry School, stopped field service, didn't answer at any Watchtower studies, arrived before the start of the meeting and left as soon as possible. I just knew I didn't belong there any longer.
My mom loved being a Jehovah's Witness. It probably broke her heart to see me in this condition. She would sit in front of me and always asked me if I had the latest Watchtower magazine or Our Kingdom Ministry. I told her I did but it was the same magazine. I would hide the New Yorker magazine inside the Watchtower magazine and read the longest article. That would usually take the whole hour.
I always had excuses on why I missed so many meetings...work...sickness...appointments for my children. I think she knew I was lying but never questioned me.
The last three years she was so ill she only made it to 10 meetings. She was a stubborn woman. She tried to attend more meetings but couldn't walk any longer. She just sat in a chair and listened to the meetings over the phone.
THANK YOU MOM FOR LEAVING ME ALONE AND NEVER QUESTIONING ME WHY I STOPPED ATTENDING MEETINGS! I THINK YOU KNEW BUT DIDN'T WANT TO UPSET ME AND ARGUE WITH YOUR SON. THAT IS TRUE LOVE, MOM!